let's go be psychos together.

i’ve been wanting to write about something for the longest time. something meaningful, something that’ll touch hearts. i guess i was thinking it too much again. after downloading the original soundtrack for The Perks Of Being A Wallflower yesterday night, i’ve been listening to Come On Eileen by Dexys Midnight Runners, the song that comes on when Charlie, in the movie, decides to take a chance and dance with his friends (Patrick and Sam). there are many, many unforgettable moments in the movie and the book, including the very symbolic ‘infinite’ moment, but my personal favorite would have to be this one. so i guess i’m going to write a bit about Perks again.

i love how the scene immortalizes every American/Western high school experience. the dance, the tuxedoes and dresses, the music, the people you really don’t want to talk to and the people you really want to talk to. listening to this song makes me think of this very short scene where the three of them—Patrick, Sam and Charlie, just dances. they dance into infinity, they let go of worries and embarrassment, they become human and they move their limbs to the music.

they dance.

it marks the very beginning of all the things Charlie was about to experience : the good and the bad; the happiness and the crushing pain and the sadness and the depression and the confusion and the wanting to escape. to me, this scene, this song, although it shows bursts of joy at the very moment, it tells us of how Charlie just takes courage to participate, and to participate in life, he was prepared to not just enjoy it, but to live through it as well.

to live, to participate, is not just to get to the times when it is happy, but it is also to get through the toughest times, the roughest situations, with the people you love the most. so many times we hear that quote : “life is not a destination, it’s a journey”, but how many times does it actually occur to us that we’re here for the now, not the later, or tomorrow? we are constantly planning, hoping, believing, and yes, we can do that; and yet, we can’t do just that. we live. we live in the today. we live in this moment, and we are here for each other. we pick the lives we live, and we pick the lives we want to get through with. we pick the injuries that’s worth the most to us, we pick the people we love, even though we don’t get to pick to be loved back.

...but we love anyways. and we live, together. hand in hand, memories entwined, lives tangled into a large ball of yarn which we refuse to untangle.

we’re in this mess together now, you and me.