perspective.

hello.

i've been meaning to write here for the longest time, but i found myself elsewhere every single time : from dance practices to church to writing in my own journal to reading reading reading and more reading to actually doing assignments to going for classes to hanging out with friends to taking pictures to living life and not having time to blog--*takes a deep breath* phew. that was an awfully long list. but yes, i've been everywhere. and i've been loving it.

well, there are parts that i don't like as much (psst the assignments part), but i find myself living life very hopefully with a carefree manner recently. i am so blessed with inspiring friends, new opportunities around every corner, great lecturers to learn from (albeit some of them do have murderously boring lessons) and just experiencing the whole thing. 

anyhow, speaking from a Christ-believer's point of view, i've realized a thing or two lately. 

ONE : humans were made with a desire to worship. 

look at your life. look at the things or people you love the most. do you not worship them? in a sense, we all worship something/someone. i used to worship music. music was all my life. it spoke to me like no one else did, it stayed by my side as i was sad, down or depressed about life being a shithole. it didn't leave. it didn't disappoint, and if i didn't like a song, i was always free to delete it and download another one that i liked better. i worshiped bands who spoke positive messages into peoples' lives. from 30 Seconds To Mars to BIGBANG, i worshiped them all. what they spoke mattered to me.

then i turned to Christ. and really it was pretty much the same--except you know now that really, absolutely nothing can go wrong. and even if it does, you know God's got your back. that whatever is going wrong is a process He is putting you through so that you can learn and grow. and that brings me to the second point.

TWO : your perspective changes COMPLETELY when you are saved by Christ.

i can witness for this. i was not a Christian until i was 20, and before this, i never liked Christianity or Christians. it was never exactly an issue to me either, i just didn't bother to think or ask about it until my brother told me about it. eventually i got saved and for the past 1 and a half years since i was saved, i have learned SO MUCH. my perspective has changed tremendously. from feeling like 'i hate my life, life sucks like crap' to 'God will always make it better'. from 'i am worthless' to 'in Jesus' eyes, everyone is worthy'. from 'i can't do this anymore' to 'with Christ anything is possible'. 

it's insane. i never would've thought i would be so involved in church. i never would've saw this coming. i would've laughed if someone told my high school self that this would be my future. i would've peed in my pants. but look where i am now. i am more extrovert than before and i am stepping out of my comfort zones a lot more than i used to. going to church has taught me how to lead, how to care for others, how to work with others, how to design, how to do photography, how to manage relationships and so much more. 

(i never meant for this to be a church/christian post, but it's so hard for me now to not even talk about church in real life, let alone virtual reality.) 

so yes, hi, i wonder, what/who do you worship in your life? 

or really, what/who do you believe in?

(no sarcasm intended ok. serious question.)