seventeen: i think i've been doing it wrong.

looking back at the 3 months or so that i've spent here in Singapore, i realized that i didn't really do much group participation. unlike my friends who got a lot closer with one another, i think i probably only got closer to that few people and i'm not really sure if they even reciprocate the feelings. all this while i've been enjoying more on the times when i go out alone because i don't really have to follow people or stuff, but i think maybe i've been doing it wrong somehow. i don't know.

it's just not the mightiest day today.

and i just have really bad timings. 

there's a good list of things that i don't want to do but must do right now. that includes assignments, projects and drawing. 

i just want to hang out.

i miss my friends.

i feel lonelier than ever.

and it's the stupidest kind of feeling to feel on a Saturday.

i miss doing stupid things with my friends.

i just--

oh you freaking hormones.

the pains of being an introvert: you want to hang out but you hate the company but you want the company but you don't really want them and people get so fed up of you because you're indecisive or you treat them not-so-nicely because you're not having the best day of your life and you just want someone to understand but no one does.

like i said, not one of my mightiest days.

for you, if you're not having one of your best days too.