Acts Campus Camp 2014: Restart.

Acts Campus Camp 2014.

there's nothing like it. it's so difficult to explain it in words. to be back at the exact location where my life had changed forevermore, it was nostalgic. but to be back at the same place in a completely different position and perspective now, looking at fresh faces and brand new flames wanting to put God first, it's incredible. to be able to stand on that same ground, but feel so different entirely, and look from such an entirely different perspective, it's amazing. 

two years back, when i was in that same hall, i knew nothing about God. i knew nothing about Jesus. maybe, i knew a little bit about Christianity. but i wanted more, so i gave my life to Jesus there and then. after four years of struggling with this faith, i gave in. i gave in to a world filled with wonders, miracles, supernatural forces and divine powers. i surrendered myself to Jesus just as how He surrendered Himself to the cross for us. i was completely clueless what sort of a world i was bringing myself into, absolutely oblivious of what a church was, what denominations meant, what the technical stuff were--not that it was the things that mattered the most, but it matter anyway. all i wanted, was Jesus.

last night during Ministry night, i received it. 

after i had accepted Christ, i had seen Jesus move mightily in my life. blessing me, giving me favors i never deserved or even asked for, bringing my family one step closer to God; but i had always felt one step further from God compared to my friends. i had always felt like i could not connect on a very personal level with Jesus and hear His voice. i didn't know how to discern my own will from His; my own thoughts from His.

it was made clearer last night. i was placed in a position where i could now be praying over people's lives instead of just waiting to be prayed for. i was given the authority and power to discern on who i felt led to pray for. i walked around the hall and found a friend, whom i knew was still struggling with family problems. i asked her if she had been prayed for, she said no. i asked again if she wanted to be prayed for, she said 'anything'. i asked about the situation at home. she said, 'it got worse'.

my heart sank. and my chest started to hurt. it wasn't the sort of sharp pains you get in your chest, it was the sort that occurs when before you were going to cry. the sort of emotional pain. it flooded my heart. i knew, that i wasn't going to walk away without praying for her. as i begin to speak, even at the first word, i was already choking up and trying hard not to let the tears fall. i knew it wasn't me, and it was the Holy Spirit working through me. i could feel her pain, and i just kept praying. it was intense for me. never before had i been in a situation like that. 

but it was out of the world. it was supernatural. it was God.

this camp really put me through a whole new level of faith. i do want more of Jesus now. and i do want to serve Him more, listen to Him more, read His word a whole lot more and gain knowledge. i want to know Him more. this savior of ours. 

it's been a great restart. here's to a new beginning, where everything can only go up from here onward. meeting back with the family in Christ at camp was great, and getting to know new people was even better. being able to jump and dance and sing my lungs our during worship was awesome, and being able to quiet down to listen to His rhythmic presence was priceless. 

nonetheless, above all else, getting to get so close to Jesus, was the best. 

and i only want to get closer now.