the last i wrote here was about a week ago, and honestly it feels a lot longer than that. lately i've been feeling so inspiration-deprived that no matter how much sleep i get, or how much i try to get inspired, nothing works. i'm trying to get my hands on new music now because that always work somehow. but i really want Youtube stuff (that's never downloadable) and i just don't have the time to go and convert every single song unless i am willing to go without sleep for a week straight.
well, i am willing. my body isn't.
forgive me as i continue to ramble. i finished a 2,000 word essay with hardly any confidence about the paper, and now i'm about to venture into writing about 800-1,000 words in Malay. this is really just destroying my confidence in so many things. i've been trying to doodle and hopefully, with a new book now, i can doodle better, but so far it's just been quite hopeless. i'm at that point where inspiration just doesn't want to come to me and even if it does, i can't convey it. which sucks. a lot.
i'm just blurting out words now for the sake of writing and really just hoping that i'll be able to draw something. SOMETHING. tests are coming up and boy am i nervous. exams in three weeks' time and i haven't even started studying a thing because i am a horrible university student.
i need something new.
surprise me.
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